| everyday is ponponpon. |


andyoullbemy and,andyoullbemy by ~llunanon
and I would like to say that I know what's going on,
to confront you and try to reason.
to admit my wrongful bearings,
to say that I'm sorry.
the damage is done,
and all that is left is my unwavering curiosity,
my ----------------


and then feelin' alrightand then by ~llunanon
and then,
and then,
and then,
you'd feel the need to say that,
to say that you,
to say that you,
to say,
to say,
to say that you--- love me.
building a foundation based on myths and superstition,
basting yourself in lamentation and second-thoughts,
this encumbers you to catch your breath.
that maybe,
in spite,
and resolution,
and self-hate,
and determination,
and selflessness,
that maybe,
somewhere,
in the distant future---
I can finally embrace those three little words.
or perhaps
I won't--
and then,
and then,
and then,
you can finally say that you did.


mission write a letter or two, with the intention to reveal it all-mission by ~llunanon
one day, too soon, or maybe never.
just wanting to throw it all away,
suture me up and promise me fairy tales and happy endings-
saying that you would never leave me.
but you did.
promises are what fools make for excuses,
we mend our words to distinguish our own insecurities and faults.
plotting things like digging ditches in the foreground,
hoping for someone to uncover and reveal the truth.
yet we crumble at the thoughts of being vulnerable and used.
yet they keep repeating, they keep calling out my name-!
searching eyes, smashing tongues, desperate hands-
I lose mysel
| lol am i r arteest? |
